return of the dread Cranky Bear(s)

Last night, Trish really turned into the dread Cranky Bear. 'Cause of Bridget (the lazy gossip who won't do the dishes), Trish stayed an extra 1/2-3/4 of an hour. Perhaps the stress is too great for her. In any case, she came home tired, around 4:00.

I offered to fix her a sandwich, but she declined. We sat around until 5:15, when she chopped up some ham & I mixed it with baked beans. Nuked it for 15 minutes; it was real atomic.

Trish decided to spend 1/2 of an hour cleaning the bathroom. I asked if I could turn on the TV, found Ultraviolet just beginning on Starz.

I missed the entire first act, 'cause, after finishing the bathroom, then tackling a few dishes, she came out of the kitchen & started to lecture me on "watching portion sizes" & in general calling me fat, while she insists on buying junk food every time I give her grocery money.

Eventually, she took a time-out, to go down in the basement & read. Apparently, she'd decided that she'd read for a hobby now, but it's something I can't share; I'm legally blind.

I think the K. Fantasy is a large part of it. I also think Becky's house-warming party may be another factor. She'd been invited, but turned it down, 'cause all they do is get thoroughly descoobied on Mountain Fresh beer (or whatever) & it doesn't mix with our meds. Matter of fact, I worked a Scooby Higher Power with my meds.

Eventually, Trish returned from her sanctuary down in the basement, & we watched some show, now I forget what. Couldn't've been that interesting.

I woke up before 5:00 again this morning. If this keeps happening, I'll take the PRN 3rd pill for a night. I'm not missing the sleep, though. I may be hypomanic. The heightened sexuality may be reflected in my obsession with HOT or NOT. I deleted someone who turned out to be 18 -- I misjudged her age & she shouldn't've clicked Yes, if she turned around & hated it. Also, I'm getting a lot of ladies who want LTRs. I've told all of them I have a wife when I reply. The K. Fantasy sufficiently disrupted our marriage to the point that I don't need online love letters from women in foreign countries.

I'm still thinking about bio-esthetics. Have to get a hold of Wimsatt sometime. It may launch a whole new scientific discipline, if I can make it work. I don't know. I'll have to think about it some more.